Contemplating.......

Hmmm, a lot has happened since the last time i updated my blog. the season has changed, so has the mood with it. I just went through a time of rediscovery. i found myself again, after being lost in the dark for such a long time. and i only have one person to thank for..... even though things might not be the same right now or ever for that matter but i just know that everything that has ever happened in my life i will always cherish it and never regret anything that has happened. If i ever got the chance to redo everything that has ever happened in my life i would do exactly what i did the first time around. A friend told me once that "no decision is wrong theres just regret of what could have been" this is very true.... sometimes you find out things in life the hard way, i kno i did, but i think its the only way to go. you cant learn anything in life unless it actualy happens to you. i know that whatever im writing right now is very vague and totally uninteresting but it makes sense to me somehow. iv found out the reason to life. Everything in life happens for a reason, life itself is a lesson that is learnt only when you're through with it. constantly evolving, changing.... nothing stays the same no matter how much you try to keep it the same...
the biggest problem that i have is that i cant adjust to change, i feel to comfortable with whatever i have and i thought that whatever i had was good enough for everybody but i guess thats not true, everybody has their own comfort level, their own priorities... so i guess i just have to live with that and to live my life the way it goes. i want to excel in life and to make my parents proud and to keep everyone happy. i havent really been on good terms with my dad but all thats going to change. im going to make him happy and going to make him proud. i just want to be happy, im tired of feeling all shitty and all down all the time. it needs to change. im going to make myself accept changes and i just hope that everything that happens happens for the better.
I finish this post with a song that really struck a chord with me... whatever it says is really true in restrospect....


Thanks for all you've done
I've missed you for so long
I can't believe you're gone
You still live in me
I feel you in the wind
You guide me constantly


I've never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always home waiting
And now I come home and I miss your face so
Smiling down on me
I close my eyes to see


And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me
I carry the things that remind me of you
In loving memory of

The one that was so true
You were as kind as you could be
And even though you're gone
You still mean the world to me


I've never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always waiting
But now I come home and it's not the same, no
It feels empty and alone
I can't believe you're gone


And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me


I'm glad he set you free from sorrow
I'll still love you more tomorrow
And you will be here with me still


All you did you did with feeling
And You always found the meaning
And you always will
And you always will
And you always will


And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me


"In loving Memory" - Alterbridge

Gaming Khwaari.....

Peoples!!! today me and my friends decided to go to F11 markaz for a little multiplayer gaming goodness. But there was harldy any goodness there or on the way to get there..... damn today was hell, we played for 2 hours and really it wasnt all that much worth the trouble.... heres the story....

We were going to get free from classes at 1 but we decided to bunk the last class so made out on our journey at around 12ish... we stood outside the university gate hoping to hitch a ride. usually we hitch a ride from the gate to Golra morre and then from there to g11 chowk and then from there to F11 markaz. but it was anything but that easy today. first we stood there for like 30 mins and couldnt get anyone to take us. finally someone stopped but since we were 4 people and there was space for only 2, 2 of us had to stay behind, namely me and dana... well we got upto golra morre and



this fellow was nice enough to give us a ride to the G11 chowk. We have to go through



this stupid toll plaza to get to islamabad from pindi. iv always wondered that we islamabadis shouldnt give a toll to get into our own frikkin city!! its so stupid and u can give any amount of money to anyone and u feel alright but handing out 5 rupees to these fools really doesnt feel good :P.



roadside entertainment :P

From the G11 chowk a guy gave us a ride, saying that he has to go to F10 and that he would be going through F11, right wen he gets to the intersection for F11 we get off and he turns to F11..... i mean what the hell!?!?!? lying bastard....... anyway we had to take a taxi from there and get to the gaming place.... FINALLY!!!!
Simcity its called, we bought time for 2 hours and started playing. there were around 15 guys all in all and i had made the server so my pc was lagging like a bitch, i didnt have much fun cause of that. anyway we played and had some fun, it was ok not that great.
anyway we started on our way back. we took a van



to Karach company, another one to i-8 (just me and fahd) and then fahd dropped me home. that was bout it.... a long long journey ended. it was 4pm when i got home.... i was damn tired, i had lunch and went to bed for a while :) .

thats bout it for now........ later!

k700.......

i have, finally, decided to sell my T610 which has faithfully served me for over a year now, and replace it with a k700. the only problem is getting the rest of the money to actually get the phone :P.........

Restoration Project.....

Here in pakistan, we can find really old jeep bodys and then restore them to their full glory. People even convert them to really sweet looking wranglers.... so once it so happened that my dad promised me to get me one of those if i got really good grades and got into a respectable institution for my graduate studies in pakistan. surprisingly, i did both of those things, i got really good grades and got into that God forsaken place called NUST which is unfortunately one of the better institutions in pakistan. anyhow, i didnt get the jeep.... for some reason.
Then one fine day i just asked my dad to get me a jeep but he says its too dangerous. i said just for fuN! well, he came up with the idea of restoring a really old bike to its full potential. I just happenned that i knew where such bikes were. So.... here are the contenders...

1. 1963 Ariel.....



2. 1936 Matchless.....



Ill post more pictures and details when i get them. And ill post pictures of any progress, if and only if there is any progress..... which im kinda skeptical about. but hope is always there! .......

The weekend....

the weekend was a big mess all in all but it had its moments.....
Friday was great. i luckily got tickets to an underground act "RockFest 2004" and had a blast there. Will post some pictures soon. took my cousin and my friend Fahd with me. Later my cousin stayed over and we had a good time., had a long talk about life, religion, difference between the US and Pakistan.
I had planned to go to a Jal concert on the weekend (sunday to be particular) but i heard the concert got cancelled. no problem, there was another one scheduled for saturday. a concert of EP. i was going out with friends so it would have been fun but for some reason my friends ditched me!!! i mean wheres the decency in that? i was so pissed that sunday was just hell for me. anyway, another week is ahead full of college related shit and everything. and to top that off some f*cker broke the rear view mirror of my car.



luck aint on my side for a while..... wonder when itll shine back on me.....

Speaking Out....

Today wasnt a very productive day..... a very regular day in the university which involved lounging around, bunking classes, avoiding the bloody staffas and their fine registers, eating in the dingy cafetaria, making fun of and being made fun of with friends and all the other stuff that comes in between..... and oh yea a little bit of studying too but then agian maybe not.....
On the way back the driver in his "Nadia jaana nahi hay...?" way didnt even know that the busses were supposed to go late cause of some sessional for the students so he actually turned the bus around and went back to the university!! and to top that off he made us wait on the way at some crappy mechanics place, all us 20+ students in the bus while he chatted it up with some Mohabbat Khan who turned out to be a 8 year old kid.....
thats all for now...


Yet again, nothingness follows..........

Photography....

Im thinking of taking up photography. i have a digital camera, i think im artistically inclined and also have alot of free time (yea right :P) i would just have to get used to carrying the digital camera around with me where ever i go or if i could just get the k700..... oh that would be nice....

An update on life....

ever since i lost my broadband internet connection i havent been able to use the internet very effectively. i recently made a blog on the new Msn Spaces but it wasnt very user friendly so i decided to continue with blogspot instead. The only thing that actually attracted me to it was that its integrated with hotmail and msn messenger so when someone actually updates their page it would show up on their contact card which i think is pretty cool. well thats all for now, since im writing from college i really cant keep writing :P later......